stars&skies*lights&sounds.

2008-06-08T14:42:00.006+08:00

Okay! its been more than a month since my last post but heck hahaha. dont feel like blogging anymore so! wanted to delete this but cos it has memories and reminds me of how gross i was, i am not going to delete it but leave in the cyber space, free to roam. heehee. bye folks.

2008-06-08T14:42:00.003+08:00

erm hello this is post one seven nine but i dont like this number so im going to post one again now.

sakura's.

2008-05-04T22:42:00.001+08:00

Its time i moved.

something new.

2008-05-04T14:32:00.000+08:00

hello everybody.

only time.

2008-05-02T22:08:00.002+08:00

& I found out she has the same birthday as me. I suddenly feel a new affinity but its so near yet so far. so close but not at all. I've only met her once but somehow I just can't forget this. We were babies born on the same day. )=

2008-05-01T22:14:00.002+08:00

I suddenly feel so paranoid everytime I'm not with Ben, or when my mum is not yet home, whenever i cross the road, see the road or things like that. I know of many incidents. My ex-boyfriend's cousin's family, another of his cousin, the two in the newspaper recently and sher's friend. It is somehow so surreal. It's such a cruelty in life and I can't bring myself to believe it all. And I'm always hoping it's not true and they were just lying. But I know it is not? I don't like this. At all. Not so much of losing someone but the cause in this case. Why? )= May they all be in peace and happiness. I love Ben and I don't ever want to lose him. I love my mum and I don't ever want to lose her. I love my sisters, Athena, Almeta and Crystal and I don't ever want to lose them. I love my grandma and I don't wanna lose her anytime soon. T_T I love my aunts and i don't wanna lose them anytime soon either. I love my uncle and cousins and I don't wanna lose them. I love Sherlyn, Serene, Wei Xian, Lina and Huiyu and I don't want to lose them. I love Phoebe, Michael, Nicholas and I dont want to lose them. I love my classmates in poly and I dont want to lose them. And I mean it. Please.

Ousz!

2008-04-27T19:45:00.003+08:00

Sherlyn's inspiration comes from books and films. I think mine comes from anime. LOL Hataraki Man has inspired me. I loved that show. I'm quite sure music also inspires us, though. At least, for me. Tokyo Marble Chocolate was also very interesting. About love. But i guess, curiousity is my favourite. Asking questions. Yes, curiousity kills the cat, because some things are better off being unknown. Surely, it is better being curious than not at all? YES. Maturity was never easy. Could we study philosophy? (= But anyway, some anime arent all that worthless you know. Some anime characters really inspire you to be the same as them with those positive energy and attitude of theirs. Sherlyn must be the only friend I know to have gone through so much and still be cheerful =o=. I never said I loved life, but Ben tells me to not be so hateful towards life and love it cos it has him in it! Aww ^_^ Oh, we all have to go through bakabaka things in life. Reality sucks. I guess we all have to try :[ Que sera sera? We are freaking growing up! There's no time left! Carpe diem.. not exactly easy to do as to type it out. No time to be carefree. I've always wanted to nice and simple life with no worries.Probably impossible eh. Luxury is but Luxury. Isn't it the simple things in life that make you happy? Its the small things that counts. Yea, small, simple things make me happy, happiest.

HEART STATION.

2008-04-23T22:12:00.002+08:00

I changed my mac's topcase! woohoo. Took 3 hours to change one topcase? -_- so i went back to school and went back again when its time to collect it. tiny crack at the side is now cracked no more! (= But, but, I'm scared of growing up! I don't know why it makes me slightly, and just so slightly uncomfortable at the thought of people my age getting driver's licenses and cars. Zomg.

Closet Full Of Love by Puffy.

2008-04-23T09:03:00.002+08:00

TOGETHERNESS PLEASE LOL (: HAPPY, YES?

雨の中のメロディー

2008-04-22T22:03:00.002+08:00

-mothers -jobs I want to thank my mother for having raised me as who I am today, and i am thankful to everything i had, have and experienced. I truly believe that a person and who they are are strongly affected by the environment they live and grow up in. It masks people's actual nature and make them become someone else, sometimes. And, I am glad to be who I am and am grateful for the environment I grew up in, from my primary school, my family and my grandmother's house where i spent my childhood. I guess it is especially important when you are young cos its where you learn from the most and absorb to make up your first self. And, I am grateful for my mother having brought me up and having given me many things others may not have had. Especially values. Values are extremely important and so is treasuring family. Anyway apart from this I was also thinking.. Where would I be when I'm 25? That's 7 years from now. zomg. Graduation. The song never fails to make me feel sadness and nostalgia. Secondary school. Past. Where all my friends would go, would be. "Could we survive it out there, could we make it somehow" Yea, I wonder too...Ohh, life. I feel like an emotional person. Mood swings plenty. Easily controlled by emotions. Emo sia. haha! *scrunches up my face* okay this is wordy. goodnight i think. ben=daisuki.

ishioni ikuyo!

2008-04-21T23:41:00.003+08:00

ATE MONTHS one day and more! (= fanks for everything man. bestes everrr xoxo im sorry, but i love youu lolwow. random pic!

2008-04-19T23:44:00.001+08:00

because a huge ass bomb just dropped on me.

2008-04-19T23:17:00.000+08:00

fuck. ):

rants. just

2008-04-17T21:44:00.003+08:00

YO. I, am too lazy to blog honestly. School so far is okay. Have got [camera & lighting], [hardware modelling-wts], [motion graphics & broadcast design], [scriptwriting] & [starting a business] as my IS module and extra diploma plus module, [principles of management]. Timetable is quite slack. Okay, now let's pray and hope Chanel can work hard and get through this semester in one piece!!! hahaha. oh, cheesy love. Am hooked onto 'Still Doll', the ending song from Vampire Knight. zomg. I love ben. He is uber nice to me but i always bully him and he still loves me. hahaha. Thank you! Yesterday was school then meet Sherlyn Wong Muffin @ Parkway cos she wanted to go Borders. Then to Simpang where we ate so much till we almost wanted to puke. One roti john that we didnt finish, one mashed potato which was super nice, one fries which was also nice. Portion was quite big. And one strawberry prata and a big mug of drink each. Die man. After that full until cannot walk man. Lol. Fine. Anyway. I've pretty much have got nothing else to say and am lazy to upload pictures so woohoo! enjoy your life guys! (=

omg.

2008-04-12T00:01:00.003+08:00

Here, a sakura flower for ya'll to enjoy. My hair smells badly of smoke despite having washed it twice. I am having a headache too. Steamboat at Lina's house today was enjoyable- chatting, listening and eating, avoiding Butter, their dog, cos we are kinda afraid, and looking at the sleeping baby Adriel. (= gonna help sis at her race tmr. umm umm. Goodnight peeps.

Arrigatou.

2008-04-09T12:56:00.002+08:00

YESTERDAY was apple@fms meeting with attending the year ones mac training to be kpo. then meet t1b2-nians as well as pass pammy the 18 year old her pressie. TODAY is where i feel sucky & have come to the conclusion im a terrible person and unkind person. prison me, please. oh and sereneeeee, you can see some japan photos in my facebook. (=

flavour of life

2008-04-07T00:43:00.001+08:00

So you think it wasn't cold, & my shoe flew off my feet as I ran. The nerve of it.. rawr. (=

gray sky morning

2008-04-04T00:20:00.003+08:00

Hello Humans. I'm back from Japan! But I'm too lazy to post any pics so the only chance you'll prolly ever get to see em is when you invade my mac or when I'm in a good mood to upload it somewhere wherever i feel itt. Anyway Im here cos sher said i should blog more. But man, life too boring loloolllolololol. BUT! today was good! Cos i met up with her at Tampines Mall and chilled at the Starbucks for ages. It rained, stopped, rained & stopped again while we were there, how's that? (= I missed her so! We're gonna be friends for ever, right? I'm not a lazy bum bum! I just don't have much to do before I die, just yet. And, thanks for the post-it stuck in my ez link card holder! hahaha i bet you put it in when i went to the Loo. Its so sweet ^_^ I'm a happy girl. I'm glad i've ever met you and that you live so near me. And i also want to say I'm very grateful for Ben cos he supports me( except in certain school stuff rawr!) alot and stuff, well in short he's practically it. Thanks for being nice! (: im gna cry lol. yay yay yay. Okay post done lol! photo courtesy of, who else, sher muffin! (:

hello ello hum sup lo (hahaha wthhzzxoxo)

2008-03-22T00:11:00.003+08:00

I love you lots yan ting. hahaha happy 7th month as of yesterday! (= or rather day before yesterday? ha Wanted to say that I saw a really kawaii boy boy in the bus this Tuesdie! Was taking bus 5 home from far east then saw this cutie pie prolly about 10 and above or something i dunno. haha small eyes jappie boy. (((=

aye*

2008-03-15T22:40:00.005+08:00

Now that you got it what chu gon do about it, now that im your baby the things you promised me now i want, if im really your baby then share with me your secrets and all.* im (:

HELLO! (:

2008-03-14T01:49:00.002+08:00

Today it Rained cats & dogs. Robinhood Nel braved through the rain with her hot pink umbrella and took the bus to meet Benedict Tan. Oh what a lucky man he is. HAHA. Went to AMK hub for some not so nice KFC. Hung around and flew off to meet Atiqah as the Muffin was late. *poof!* muffin appeared outta nowhere and we all also apparated to the Esplanade and listened and watched the malaysian band, Fern, play their stuff. They kinda nervous, sher said. Next band we waited for was Aussie peeps Violet, aye g'day mate. Pretty good stuff they have & Omg they did cover of Iris...... its the Love! the song la. man. ATQ headed home, me & shermuff headed to the Bedok pasar malam that both of didnt know who to ask to but turns out we both wanna go SO WE WENT. hahaha RAMLY BURGER!! thats prolly the only good thing plus the matching kiddy ring we bought for 50cents each. Cos the taiwanese sausage was not that great and the goreng pisang tastes like shit. Seriously. Anyways, had a good time with them!! esp. shermuff yeaaaa. yes ilbtoo.

Im Serious.

2008-03-10T21:10:00.000+08:00

Today, a chinky woman sat beside me in the bus. She talked to me. Whyyyy?

i used to be my own protection-

2008-03-06T17:33:00.002+08:00

but not now; cos my path has lost direction, somehow. i love ben! (: me class rocks always.

whyyyyy??

2008-03-01T22:46:00.002+08:00

Why is mankind so shitty? Who or what has made mankind this way? Men or women, its all the same at the end of the story? No matter which way i look at it i can't find some form of answer. Why do things work this way in everything? Women complain men are all the same. At the end of the story, the women are no better. Gah, like why doesn't something work out? Why do human relationships have to be this way? eeks so what if its for - man, this is So pointless. -_- soz i got ahead of myself. i shall now retreat to a corner. thanks (:

This IS Sparta!!

2008-03-01T16:02:00.000+08:00

2008-02-26T01:21:00.000+08:00

math.s

2008-02-21T21:57:00.002+08:00

Zhang xian sheng! You nin de bao fu! Nei yi ge zhang?! (x10) Calbee potato chips. Spa~ o*_*o A sleeping beauty; awakens. A princess; finds her unicorn. A wizard; waves his wand. A pirate; finds hidden treasure. A knight; slays the dragon. Hidden worlds, rediscovered. And all before the clock strikes midnight. N82- storytelling; redisovered. or something like that. my favourite ads. All i want is some family harmony. (: I dreamed i was missing; you were so scared. but no one would listen; cos no one else cared. i woke with this fear. am i lost, in my lies do i tell myself, i dont realise i see pain-i see need. DAY BEFORE I SAW A DEER. YESTERDAY I SAW A RABBIT. and today, YOU. ben, where's my 抱抱?

yea yea yea <3

2008-02-19T21:10:00.001+08:00

Hi. This is an update. Enjoy. (:

im clingingggggg <3

2008-02-01T22:34:00.000+08:00

lurfe. ermssss teeheehee. LOL eets the First Day of FEB people. rejoyce. (spastic face plus baby face.)

2008-01-29T20:00:00.000+08:00

there will always be problems big or small, tall or short, fat or skeeny, in our lives. its part & parcel & experience. hold on stay tall. not so easy is it. not very difficult is it. breathe, breathe, breathe. The world will come to a still.

so lemme get this straight-

2008-01-28T22:03:00.000+08:00

the fuzz when you're near. your head on my shoulder.

2008-01-20T01:36:00.000+08:00

hahaha (:

2008-01-14T12:29:00.000+08:00

strangers, friends, lovers, partners, associates.. they are all just names for people. what are they and why do we need them? why do we need to be close?

rawr.

2008-01-13T17:15:00.000+08:00

i know im supposed to be doing work. but im freaking bored. i could puke. script is done 1.5 page. Get Down To Work You Fat Ass Slacker!! And STOP snacking!!!

a needless post

2008-01-12T19:33:00.000+08:00

ELLO. many 3D Art sculptures, days spent with my love, days spent thinking, days spent passing it by. final projects all a-coming. Animation with teresa & muff. Art with teresa & muff. both of which i wonder what to do. Location production with beeg group. script of which i have yet to write. of which i have to think about. (maybe i'll do it tonight) Computer graphics individual. of which i may collapse. )= IAC my worst fear. Issues with great hope it'll be fine with the final assignment, of topic have yet to be decided. OH MY GOURD. GIVE ME TOPICS PLEASE! LIKE WHERE'S THE CR8TIVE JOOSE?? =/ Ok, so this is school. chaos and such. for the next 3-4 weeks. On a separate note, wanna find a job. i think i might find some waitress thing? one month only or smthg. cos like, mid march got Japan trip (woohoo) but results a-coming on 14mar. O_O!!! and i seriously fear for enrolling in IS mods cos i'll be in Jap. Open House for NGEE ANN on thurs to fri, 17th to 19th; 11am to 6pm. can't do saturday sadly cos there's production i think. and fri got class 90% the open house time. so im gonna go thurs i guess. At soundstage. gimme strength. thank you unknown, mysterious, unidentified thing.

colliddde

2008-01-02T19:22:00.000+08:00

forgot to say iac group and i checked out the new student lounge at 72 today. lots of space, tables & chairs. i like the chairs! got a couple of variety. there's a games room somewhere and two reading rooms. the reading room's chairs are hot. check it out cos it has some leopard print lookalike. lol! but beware of toppling over. hahaha. i like this really cute chairstool thing but it occured to me that it looked kinda wrong when i was about to snap a pic of it. hahaha... pics are of reading room.

if its love that keeps us breathing

2008-01-02T18:54:00.000+08:00

Hey hey hoO! mood is pretty alright today (: yesterday was sorta sucky. The thought of going back to school was pretty unnerving =/ Thankfully, today is passable. I really hope IAC will go well. Please, please, please. Also, i hope i can manage CG okay. Perhaps i should go find help for maya... @_@ I don't think i should change courses. Firstly, it would mean having to go through Year 1 again although if i go to FSV, we only need to take about 4 modules. It would mean kinda wasting another year for 4 modules, and everything just gets delayed a year. Even worse, paying another 1000+ -_-ll and!! I'm not even sure if i'd do better in FSV, and!! even get in or apply. Well, i guess if im not even veyr motivated to apply, it just mean i shouldnt. I don't mind being in DVFX, only thing is- i'm not very good at such techie stuffs and software. pray for me. i may not go very far. But i do intend to work after poly. heh heh. I haven't 'found myself' and my real path in life, as in interest? Which is really kinda bad cos i'm getting older. i bet 90% of us out there haven't either. muahha. Can You Believe It, its Freaking 2008 hahahaaa. Can you believe im gonna be 18 years old in... gosh, c. 11months LOL! nel stop dreaming hahaha. oh, and Can You Believe It gonna be Year TwO in April omgomg. I hope new dvfxians come in teh heh heh. :p Okay so today had same ol' contemp issues then grp discussion for iac. tried to find mr.jonet but i guess we went too late and he'd left for class. Accompanied sher 154 then 8 to tampines inter. Chilled and chatted till 5 30, that was like, for two hours. hahaha. love my muffin. then homed. hope your leg gets well soon. that big bump is horrifying. got blue black i swear. may you not need operation ;) hope ben ben gets enough rest & sleep. not fall sick, be healthy and cute, no stress and get through final parts of sem 2 fine. love all!

random thoughts of the day.

2007-12-30T22:34:00.000+08:00

Is this the path i'm supposed to walk, meant to take, the road for me? & words mean little in the absence of actions, but actions mean plenty even with absence of words. However sometimes, words can brighten up your day, mean Alot, and maybe, you can even think of it as, words are a form of action, after all. my picture wasn't fated to be shown. cos the blogger thingy cracked up. guess its too ugly. omgomgggggggggggg. yea. we all have lousy moments. thats when i'll say: - & today its fustration, omg and whatever. i dont wanna sleep.

more shits. chill peels.

2007-12-18T19:14:00.001+08:00

" It feels like a billion years- billion cos it has 'b' and ben has 'b'. no million, no trillion.- BUT its been only 120 days or so with noob. i wanna do okay this sem. please please please. &, i dont want to be leader for any more projects man. it sucks. screw leadership. & nobody will listen to me. like, shut up nel. you're annoying piece of shit. thank you. "

haha shits.

2007-12-17T22:57:00.000+08:00

sher muffin sneaky took this super 'glam' pic of me. this is last thurs.

thank you is two words. this post has many words.

2007-12-13T01:43:00.000+08:00

hellooo. im here to announce my appreciation for all who wished me happy birthday etc. HAHA thanks to serene,lina,huiyu and xian for that day the presents (im now espirit girl with bensie lol!) and the cake! haha and consequently the sms's from you guys on the actual day esp. xian's. haha it was a really nice msg. (: oh and they tricked me! i was making my wish before i blew the candles on the cake and huiyu was taking pictures. trying to trick me, they said huiyu wasn't done yet. Alas! i got cheated and they were all laughing haha. thanks man. x) anddddd, pamela (for being the first to wish me on that day), qinggie, shu shu- we shall meet soon. a meeting other than in school hahaha ;) thanks to korkor (yes yes the best in the world ok.), michael and narith for msg/call. thanks to comments on friendster, esp. Lavina (: thanks to wishes by zhonghe and darryl. both i did not expect haha. very importantly, thanks to my peegie sister crystal who wished me happy birthday in person, in sms, in card, in friendster, in email, in blog, AND in facebook. lol! so hardworking. but it was nice surprise. imagine it. so hilarious to keep opening websites only to find your sister wished you happy birthday. Again. hahahahhaha loves! thanks to my da jie jie Athena the Great for the cute little pair of white gold earrings which is so cute. im happy its white gold cos its nice and it means no ear infection! haha i suspect i have sensitive ears. Like she does too. cant wear cheap silver darn it. not for long anyway. im still gna wear my cheap silver earrings cos i have em' and shall wear em. Last but not least, my dearest bensie poo. For spending the day with boring ole' me. lalala. hahaha. i enjoyed my day! it ish fun walking around with you and talking about lame things x) and using our sentosa cards as redemption card hahaha. seriously. ((: i lufef you loadsss. something about you makes me smile. i love you but i dont know why. gee o"o C: i'll always be right here for you. loves, nel

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2007-12-05T01:18:00.001+08:00

sheetload of pics. lina has rom-ed.

2007-12-05T00:51:00.000+08:00

omg im a chobits girl! o"o hahaha

2007-11-30T21:58:00.001+08:00

Who is your inner CLAMP character?
created with QuizFarm.com

You scored as Chii

According to results, you are most like Chii from Chobits. Innocent, adorable and fresh, you love learning new things and exploring the world, even though it might get you in to trouble from time to time. You are happy in your own little world, and you feel best when you are able to show those around you how much you care. Just remember to "recharge" yourself from time to time and you'll be just fine.

Fai

75%

Chii

75%

Kurogane

67%

Watanuki

63%

Kamui

58%

Hokuto

54%

Seishirou

54%

Yuuko

50%

Sakura

46%

Kero-chan

46%

Miyuki-chan

38%

captures & snapshots.

2007-11-25T22:25:00.002+08:00

social psychology & communication.

2007-11-23T16:17:00.000+08:00

i like my personal space.

92 days with my baby love.

2007-11-20T23:14:00.000+08:00

confetti has been thrown about by me and balloon released. you're my special boy. even though things arnt always smooth, and your laughter is always extraordinarily audible..i guess that's what makes us, US! =D at times when with you i will say im bored. but when im not with you im (...). i will learn to love evrything you are and i will and do love everything you naturally are. note there are differences in things you are and others. for example i shall learn to love your laughter. LOL. i love you cos you make me smile. i love you cos you make me laugh. i love you cos you make me laugh until i wanna vomit becos we just ate a truck load of food. *You tell in the house* i love you cos you have a hip grandma. *bass guitar!* and. so many more but its gna be between me and you. ((((((((((((((((((::::::::::: YAY! okay enough of the Opening, lets get down to business (lol i love saying this sorry ben ben dont sue me.) so. today was boring day and rainy and lina sent me sms to inform about her ROM! eek! its omg can! im very excite for her and happy. lalala. we shall all meet soon. muhahaha.

1 to 20

2007-11-19T09:39:00.000+08:00

my macbook is dirty. really dirty. i want to send it for dry cleaning. how much would it cost? maybe.. $1.3k? cos i needa buy a new one after washing it in water! wahaha omg. & hor( eeks! im writing HOR!) i realise i sorta dont take care of my lappy cos i always hold it carelessly and put it on tables carelessly haha. i think it has accumulated lots of scratches and bruises already. This has to last me another 2 1/2 years and more. Pray for me. I'm just teaching it to be strong! *protests* Oh what a nice intrapersonal conversation i have here. I even protest against myself. Or something like that.

LoL!

2007-11-16T00:02:00.000+08:00

boy, no matter what we go through; you step up i'll step up too.

he's sick of my buzz's x)

2007-11-15T23:58:00.000+08:00

hahaha. watched memento. back to front show. screwed up memory man. "do i lie to myself to be happy?" -i dont think so. i lie to myself to keep moving on. i've got life to do; i've got life to do. baby no matter how many or how much stuff i think about, no matter on the bus, or anywhere, with you or at home, alone or with friends, i will still always think of you, cos you're my boo. ;)

1%

2007-11-14T22:20:00.000+08:00

reading li qing's recent blog posts.. makes me almost want to cry. and reminds me of things bringing sort of nostalgic feelings, sort of sad feelings, sort of i know it too feelings, many other feelings. a feeling; the feeling. sometimes, i get funny stuff in my tummy. they are something like butterflies... *fly fly* ~flutters away~ she just manages to write such long posts about things she feels. but i guess sometimes her some other feelings are unspoken too. sometimes i wish life was a little easier to live. i wonder what im really here for. and what am i meant to be? *at this point ben might say the world and its people revolves around him lol* recently i dont really have uber cheerful moods. which also reminds me im seeing less of shu,pam,qing and all the rest although we have same soc psy lecture every monday.i feel sorry for sher cos she has to deal with my sianness. but... somehow it just is. gah. i hope they go momento tmr! well. i dont really like to talk lol. there's nothing much to say anyway is there? however sometimes there are loads to say but somehow i just cant get it across and i stumble. sometimes i just say all the wrong words when i wanted to say something else. sometimes, silence is golden. and sometimes, just your presence is enough (: my thoughts are random. and its illogical in a way. i dont think its unreasonable. it just goes in weird paths lol. im bad at teaching. i know it myself and understand but i cant explain things properly to others. tried and tested people. im very sorry and its not that i dont want to help, its just that i wont help cos i cant do it properly hahaa. everytime i try, its not good enough. example, in secondary when trying to teach my friend accounts; trying to explain things to my classmate before test.. and trying to explain soc psy to sherlyn. it just isnt right leh. =/ most times, im thinking of so many things, 1% you guys know. HAHA. 100% times i try to WRITE manually like a diary, i get too tired trying to write out my endless thoughts & feelings that i stop before it ends because my thoughts run too fast and i write too slow. there you have it. my 1% of the day (: current song: is it you by cassie from step up 2 ost (i cant wait for step up 2 to be in movies!!!!! =D) oh & i watched BEE MOVIE today with lollipop @ junc.8 twas funnyy hahaha. he predicted a part of the movie cos it was kinda cliched. bees supporting the plane. the song is it you and pictures are in my friendster. WHEE!

wiggety

2007-11-10T20:51:00.000+08:00

so, i finally got my hair cut. yes, look at yesterday's pics hair still so nicely long right. not! that was a wig. dont gimme shocked look people. believe it. dont you think it looks somehow fake? i think i was so good i even fooled phoebe and she prolly thought it was real too! (: HAHAHA. ;) erm yea. personally i think its still too long for short hair. no pics until monday. i superlove benny. yes, i was kidding, Duh. of course i didnt wear a wig -_-

so it was then..

2007-11-09T22:12:00.000+08:00

outing after school with my phoebe carmen today! im losing my focus. maybe i dont have much talent in 3d art. my wire sculpture seems meaningless and empty. its like its just wires bunched together. i want my focus back thanks. chatting with pho was great, sipping bucks & eating the dinner we couldnt finish. ranting about various things. (: l0vemypho! & Amp. iheartneb.

2007-11-09T22:11:00.000+08:00

random pics over time

2007-11-08T22:11:00.000+08:00

retarded lollipop super loves

2007-11-05T23:31:00.000+08:00

Life is good because there's you. he says he's real. I say, define real. *shrugs* whats really real wahaha. im not sure either. but why care so much. i will just confuse myself thinking about it. vizzaza ads are super funny. dvfx seems super tedious. oh what have i gotten into. reminder to self-Up &Comin' cg-project IS-comissues ppt some group sheet thing for iac.* volunteers deaf & dumb or smthg* OH AND, remember, remember the 5th of november! V for Vendetta Ya'll! =D nights. peace owt.

V FOR VENDETTA. HE DRESSED FOR HALLOWEEN.

2007-10-31T22:21:00.000+08:00

HELLO AND _HAPPY HALLOWEEN_ TO ALL YOU DWEEBS, SPOONHEADS AND GRAPEFACES & ETC PEEPS! (: RAWR. IM SCARY. FEAR ME! ;) vendetta'd today in school. cool.

candy RED

2007-10-30T17:01:00.000+08:00

justin's not so new songs gets me hooked. yea i know im slow. always have been but who cares =p referring to last friday art presentation, i was kinda nervous- i dont even know why- i must have gone a tad fast ): sure get lousy grade. referring to today's camera handling test, was pretty okay except for stupid error at start and wobbly hands and framing grossities, rest was fine. so thats three minuses. sighs. well i guess important part is learning from ya mistakes. Life is so empty. Last night was spent talking to abhored architect about crapped up life and parents. Its the shit we live in people. yup. nuff' said. today i like onigiri's. ate two.

2007-10-29T14:04:00.000+08:00

HELLOEVERYBODYIMBOREDSOIMTYPINGINCAPSANDNOSPACE.IWISHTHEREWASMOREFUNTHINGSTODOORBEEXCITEDABOUT.OH, TODAYISMONDAY.NOWONDERITSBORING XD. MY NAME IS CHANEL. A.K.A FRAGMENT. yes im in class now but it hasnt started. i was first to arrive(WA, STR8 'A' STUDENT, yea i know thanks ;) ) ZZZ gotta go. p.s i love you

2007-10-27T11:48:00.000+08:00

shucks why is today 27th haha, i dont like the number 7. neither do i like 4, or any numbers linked to the two. the majority of this week is crap. thursday was the best. yesterday was crap too. and the only thing that made me happier was my sweetie so sweet wait for me to end lesson. tytytytytytyty. gotta go out later with sher & maybe jeannette. all the way to clarke quay zomg. kinda far eh. its nice when you're here; here with me (:

tuesday blues

2007-10-23T21:41:00.000+08:00

i think i know why im feeling emo. its the bloody pms again i think. eew, eew, eew. sometimes i feel like calling sher & asking her what she thinks abt this & that. okay fine, so its my usual thoughts about random things about life but whatever. (im not random, i just have many thoughts DUH) school totally sucks. i suck at cg, can't understand enough, i suck at loc pro, dvcam very confusing & nx lesson have test OMG! this two is enough to stress me out and its only week2! and i havent finished the camille claudel ppt double omg. WHY can't i go to a secluded/isolated island that has everything leisure and necessary i need and rest there. like some modern primitive being. oh God, you make life so hard to live. i hate this emo feeling to infinity. i want to be happy thanks. had locpro @ 8am in the morn. cldnt wake up in the morning. dozed off during lesson. anifdn lecture cancelled. bus-mrt-mrt down to harbourfront a.k.a vivo. bought belated pressie. bought sand paper, plier, sweets etc at daiso a.k.a where everything is $2. bus65 down to grandma's house bus stop where i got my mum to pick me up. got dinner. homed. emo-ed. blogged. im beginning to think my life is so boring there's no meaning in blogging anymore.

monday...blues?

2007-10-22T09:29:00.001+08:00

Omg i must be the dumbest girl on Earth; i brought my laptop to school when it only had 22% batt left and i didnt bring charger. i brought a disc of House to watch during free time but i realised i took the wrong one and i'd alr watched this one. S-I-A-N. TKS. sis bf asked if i wanted him to fetch me to school. i was like but my sch in clementi... him: ya im gg clementi. me: !! ok! Hahaha. it took so long omt.

sky.

2007-10-21T12:42:00.000+08:00

today is 2mths one day C: because i didnt blog ytd so i didnt say wahas. saturday & sunday slacking. so boring but im too lazy to do reading of textbook/ pwerpoint. why oh why. i can never do the study thing properly. like, since upper sec. my attention span is too short and im kinda fidgety= bored easily= cnt study. and dont feel like+ dont wanna? majority dont like studying, right? sometimes i wonder if i shd have gone jc. seeing those jc people its like.. seem kinda nice. but then again, if i'd gone jc, id prolly wonder if i shd have gone poly. anyway, i think my l1r5 is too high to go to a good jc. in sec school i nvr once had the intention of going jc because that wasnt where my interests lay. good thing about poly now is, no or minimum exams (WHOOP!), meeting classmates & lovely friends plus tofu. my volleyball woes zomg. i now have nth to say.

stars are falling all for us <3

2007-10-19T15:12:00.000+08:00

(: i was moody but now im happy again. its okay (: had 3dart today.shucks im really worried for this sem cos im not really tht great at the modules. sher & i concluded tt we only need to bring laptop to school on wednesdays or when needed yayay! cool neh. bus+mrt-ied with her where she left @ tanah merah to go airport study & i went home home. im having trouble falling asleep at night since hols. its really upsetting when you want to sleep but cant and i toss & turn in bed for 500 times before i lose consciousness. argh. latenight chats till the early morn. im abit lazy to post pics of today's product of 3dart so another time kaykaykaykaykay *FLASH WINNING SMILE* LOL omg i realise i've been self psycho-ing myself and self-counseling myself for the longest time lolol. damn and all this while i thought i was just doing plain thinking. omgomg i hynoptise me! zomg!!! sometimes i give myself the creeps; sometimes my mind plays tricks on me. (credit song; basketcase) im one. C: PS thanks qing for the heechul dance vid link! OMG he freaking FUNNY =D PS i love you! *saying i love you a day keeps the emoness away (:*

inconsolable

2007-10-18T21:56:00.000+08:00

im..im peeling! im not supposed to peel! i officially dont like car accidents. forget the bad and remember the good (: watermelon lollipops are nice. sherwong came back to school today, she made me palpitate that woman. LoL. sudd come and made me all jumpy wumpy fidgety. take care of your knee stop moving ard so much. =D last but not least iLOVEmybabynomatterwhat. C:

-untitled-

2007-10-16T17:31:00.001+08:00

before i forget, 3movs, nanny diaries (chick flick!), lust,caution, truth be told. rmb to try n watch* self reminder. loc pro was abit zz. remind self to bring jacket nx time!! heh heh, filming heh =D poly textbooks are ex beyond ex. ): anifdn- can you believe it, first class together with the other dvfx class haha! hope its good? c: why isnt anyone blogging anymore?? im depressed i dont wanna blog liao. HEE.

i've been looking for an answer

2007-10-16T00:26:00.001+08:00

went to school an hour too early hence waited outside the lecture theatre for about one hour. soc psych was so-so. Same class as t1b2 shu, qing, pam, cai papa, cai jie, bryan, josh etc!! not forgetting me benben (: had early release so 2hr 45mins break till next lesson. lol. intro to cg, liswanto. did some photoshop. omg i dont even understand what he was saying cant catch. stupid computer things ): i was just playing around the tools in it haha. tried my best to ask around when we had to do a short "simple" assignment. i need ultra good listening to survive man. not to mention understanding. *sighs* waited for benben to fin lesson then took bus down to amk hub and caught mr.woodcock. hahahaha, fairly funny. esp. one part- ben laugh until come out of cinema still laughing. i bet he still thinks about it LOL. i still think about 'hee chul choking' LOL, qing's fault! (: thx qing, very funnyyy! ate pepper lunch for din and got all smokey stink. PS B'* *mumble wumbles* played with the feedback form. wrote lame things like Ms. Noob Lol. Age- 40&above. then ben wrote his current fave phrase @ the 'what did you have at p.l?' - 'huan loh' Lmao. ben ah ben hahahahahhaha. crack me up. then i also wrote at the other comments section. drew a hangman and wrote 'this is ben. he laughed @ me today. haha, ben. haha.'yes im obsessed with the bob thing its damn funny. ppl if u dont know look at my friendster pictures. =D bus 22-8 home. showered. am here. am gg off. BTW, my FIRST at pepper Lunch LOL.

idk

2007-10-15T23:51:00.000+08:00

sian

2007-10-15T12:54:00.000+08:00

in school and its half boring.

littlest things.

2007-10-14T01:51:00.000+08:00

hahaha its sunday i camwhored with sister yesterday. haha how funny to say. we look retarded but who cares hehe. momo.

kuronel.

2007-10-14T01:39:00.000+08:00

i dont like. people who think they know me. keyword: think. point: you dont. some really do somehow. i once had a friend whom im not close to anymore who could tell something's happened just by my sms's. like whattt, cos i dont see any signs in em. and, some really dont. im not a girl who will never get angry. truth be told, ok, i dont have much to say HAHA. i just wanted to say truth be told lol. there's a new line i like: hide secrets not lies. i cant rmb where i got it from anymore. theres a song i really dont like. graduation. i Know u know that song! why i dont like it? its freaking SAD. wo bu yao ting. everybody wants to go back in time cos we realise, as we grow older, everything else is that much annoyingly complicated,sad,less innocent & carefree as before. although its also sometimes that much happier (:. *contradictory* if i cld go back. i'd be sec 2. i think. its hard to decide. perhaps upper primary also can =D. randoms rule. (: shan't tell! :) muahahahaha. monday- pls let sher go school thankyouthankyouthankyou. movie with baby pls thankyouthankyouthankyou.

chivalry, monday, tuesday

2007-10-10T13:59:00.000+08:00

Everybody, today, i shall talk about chivalry. i chanced upon this while reading a magazine. LoL. Evrybody knows about chivalry, no? Well, at least i bet girls do. Guy's walking on the outter side of the pavement i think is the most basic. Some may not know but to me it is a form of protection. The roads are dangerous people. The magazine article talked about how the author realises being a gentlemen is the way. He then also said chivalry could sometimes backfire for example, when the man opens the door for the lady, she might think of it as an insult meaning she can't open the door herself. Hmm, interesting wahahaha. Think about it! (: Okay so why haven't i been blogging the past two days or so? Because, i was busy celebrating some of my good friend's birthday! hee. Was supposed to go to Pam's house on monday to paint the shirt to be given to shu hui but i couldnt make it cos my mumsie was going overseas. i guess im going to get something else for her. its darn belated! )): *sorry to shu~* Evening time monday, went to me the girls @ taka to get xian's present. She had a hard time chosing what she wanted lol. Then we bused down to PS for cartel. Funnily, none of them ate Cartel before except me. So, i'd say it was a nice exp for them (: the cake was superb. Serene bought it and it got everybody's attention when the staff brought it out for us. Xian bought a cake from the same store before for her good friend too. The cake was the shape of a noodle bowl- with noodles and all of course, cool! =D my dear yamo is now 17. SO, gr8. everybody is 17 except me. once again, youngest. LoL, its time to be used to it nel nel. hahaha. After cartel, bused down again to cineleisure cos they wanted to sing k. they are the PRO's man. i go there to listen to them sing and sing lame songs once in awhile. with my kiddy voice, the only place i'd dare to sing out loud is either in the bathroom or when nobody's home. Tuesday was devoted to sentosa with TIB2 peeps for shu & qing's birthday. got woken up by sis to lock door as she left for work and got super grouchy cos i was Super sleepy (slpt at 3am.) Got up at 8 30am then left @ 10 for habourfront mrt. met shu in the toilet (coincidentally) LOL! i think i surprised her hahaha. went outside with her to see caige,pam, jacky & jj alr there. my ben ben is like, Late cos he only woke up when i called him lmao. i thought he slept early the day before to wake up early on tues! lol! darling boy you are so silly -_-ll. haha~ everybody got super sunned. all of them got wet, swimming around in the sea except me, cai ge and jj. MUAHAHA. many of us got esp shu, got tanned & red. whee~ played the water, monkey with vb (omg super tired) and other things with the vb. buried shu in the sand, i hung on the coconut tree, sat in the shade cos the sun was freaking sunny. however, luckily it was sunny on tuesday cos today, wednesday is like, rain prone (((((: fun in the sun and happy birthday pretty shu hui( sept 23), sis crystal(oct 5),liqing(oct 5),and yamo(xian) (oct 9) (: soon it'll be me! and twinsy cos same birthdate lol! although its diff cos twinsy is one yr older. -_-

always always.

2007-10-04T23:12:00.000+08:00

meowie. went to ecp with blend today! ate @ some ichiban jap place for lunch first, then starbucks-ed. and walked to ecp (Haha, the expressway.) sat at the stone table stoning (thats why its called a stone table, duh.) the sea breeze was strong and constant and messed up baby's hair wahaha. =D sorryyyyy and for the sand too. eek! lol. band tried to take a retard picture of me. i posted it, its the one of the park. HAHA, he very pro right right x) went home after awhile. gee ((: yuppp, i was happy yay. when we were walking to the bus stop through the underpass, i saw this thingy which i thought was somebody's hair la! but i realised it was a mop. omtiannes. it looked abit creepy also. ~_~ went to tampines mall after meeting up with sister and bought her birthday present. then homed. (:

thats when i love you

2007-10-02T23:21:00.000+08:00

LOL. if i said i was the 2nd most embarrassing girl on earth, no one else would say they were the 1st. i am the 2nd most embarrassing girl on earth. i've said it. i laughed out loud like a retard. i laugh non stop like a retard. i say lame things like a retard. i do stupid things like a retard. i say wrong things all the time. and sometimes at the wrong time too. i embarrass myself. TODAY- i lose my balance on the bus today and semi banged into people (note: plural). i laughed semi loud at a weird spider man minature thing that could "climb" around the wall and the seller looked at me amused. i nearly lose my balance on the escalator going down. and then laughed semi non stop about it (because it was embarrassing). serene said i was a funny girl cos i use an ouran high school host club card holder (lol). i nearly slapped my face into a branch of leaf when i came off the escalator cos i was looking at my doughnuts. and when i looked up and got surprised i lean back so i wouldnt bang into it noticing also that the two guys walking by was looking at me (duh, cos i was banging into that leaf!!). after losing balance and banging people in bus i also did a funny jerk when the bus jerked violently again and i wanted to badly so laughed but i couldnt because everybody would think i was crazy so i clamped my lips together. WHAT AN EMBARRASSMENT! all in a day's work people. thank you. *bows* huiyu serene and i were walking around bugis street and looking at little miss t shirts. huiyu was talking to serene while looking at the shirts while i was also looking but wasnt paying attention to what they were talking about. then i said i liked the little miss stubborn and turned to face them and huiyu was holding the little miss stubborn shirt ! she was also telling ser she like it haha! can you imagine! saying u like something and turning around only to see it! haha chemistry my dear friend! hi fives. but i got a little miss curious in the end wahaha. my fever is Gone. yayss. but weird throat thing is still there. water;strepsils;water;strepsils. LoL. i uncovered Two pictures!! one from sis crystal which is a picture from last day of camp. HAHA. how gross. lucky its far away. no need for guesses im holding the flag. SPOT IT. Other pic is koped from bettina's friendster lolol. sec 4 class photo!!! omg aw. ~_~ again, try spotting.

is it me or am i hungry?

2007-09-30T22:31:00.001+08:00

feeling slightly better i think fever has gone down some. from that high thing to 38.4 and now its 37 point something. cool (: bored to stay in bed gahh. thanks mumsie for some food, big sis for the iced honey water & crystal for coming in to accompany me and talk for 3minutes and saying stop doing this stop doing that and getting wet towel for me. thanks benny for msging me when ur'e out LOL. (:

MUKYA!

2007-09-30T18:42:00.000+08:00

hey guys and girls! this it it (: morning- 37.6, sorethroat, headache and backache. went to tampines mall with family for brekkie & grocery shopping. work early @ 11 30am. told sales rep not feeling well going home @ 2plus. went home @ 4 30pm. 38.9 then slept. woke, 39.1, im going to cool off with a bath peeps. ahh~ Me back! *ache* AND OH YA, I SLIPPED IN THE BATHROOM WHEN I CAME HOME LOL!!

every second counts.[edit]

2007-09-30T00:03:00.000+08:00

[[ Vineland past the candle shrine that burns on every night for someone she lets herself go like an angel in the snow she lays down on her back down on her back - she goes]] Life is ever so unpredictable and short. Full of surprises and shocks. Thats the reason why we should aprreciate what we have and treasure all we've got. thats why i treasure every moment i have with you b. i really cant believe how things turned out. i cant. it shouldnt have! i want to hug pho. give me time to digest this stuff. its crazy. work was fine today anyway but im getting some sorethroat signs n stuff. (._.) erm ya.

hold me close cos i need you to guide me to safety.

2007-09-27T23:14:00.000+08:00

another working day. 2 down, 3 to go. yawns! my legs ache like nothing esp when i bathe and walk. My dear sister, Crystal has been complaining alot about the standard of my written English in my blog. She is being English crazy for quite some time now and has been telling me my written English is atrocious. She aspires to be a lecturer and wants to study the English language in NUS. She even wants books on English for her birthday. Crystal, i am going to kill you. A blog like mine is for people to rant daily and say anything and everything they feel like not having to care about anything else. Some other blog or might i add, blogS, like yours, is for you to write long 700words paragraphs about whatever you are going through at the moment. Rewritten several times to perfection, or at least the best you can before publishing it. In any case, if you cannot stand my blog entries then very simply, don't read it you nitwit. HA. stop telling me my English sucks! If want to tell me that, when you get into that course you want to go into in NUS then tell me alright. I admit my writcomm result sucked wahaha. i admit i have punctuation errors. Your English grades in psle & olvl is still one grade below mine. lol. STILL, i want you to know I LOVE YOU and NO OFFENCE at all and PEACE YO. AND, my blog entry today is about this cos i have nothing good to write about today HAHA. a boring day = 9 30am- nelmo wakes up. 9 30-11am- eats brekkie, watchs telly. 11am-12pm- prepares for work slowly. 12pm- leaves house. 12 30- arrives and starts work. 5pm- break. EAT! (really hungry by now.) 6pm-9 30pm-work. (fold clothes. stone. stone. arrange. ZZZ) 9 45pm- HOME SWEET HOME! 11 30pm- laptopping. i.. i...(._.) stoning at work gives me alot of time to think about random things like the time sheet i just typed above. LOL. and omg, every single minute passes like a sloth at work. i feel like a snail with salt sprinkled on top ..this means agony by the way. then that screen tv thing replays the same reel of adverts and song. chen weilian, play his song, bon jovi, his new song, some female singer concert, AND, ayo technology. loled. hearing 50cents start rapping every half hour or something then ayoooo by jt. last time was the sweet escape over and over again. *crumbles.* okay this seems like a pretty long post. this is the first time im not talking to the people near me at work. usually i talk to those on either side of me but now i only talk to the shoes aunties whom speaking of which one of them gave me a choc today haha! just before 5pm meaning i was hungry so when she pass to me i was really happy hahaha. OKAY SO. OUUTTTT.

my boy is a lollipop. lets make it a cherry one @ that. (:

2007-09-26T23:06:00.000+08:00

WA HOOO~! im home and legs are tired they are screaming at me as usual when i work. i think i wanna wear specs to work tmr man. omg the cold air strains my eyes and contacts and they got reddish and dry. sighs. and i NEED my jacket gahhh! totally froze today until my nails purplish and had numbish fingers la. stupid humongous air condintioner. grr. jacket jacket jacket. happy that u feel better benny! er i dont quite know what to type already cos its pretty boring etc et cetera et cetera haha the king and i. anyways im going to bathe then sleep soon peeps tts all for today. Z.

no i wont wait forever

2007-09-25T22:56:00.000+08:00

whatever im feeling now, i cant write down and i cant say. i will try not to care.

if music was the fo0d for l0ve, then play on- williamshakespeare.

2007-09-22T23:43:00.000+08:00

Everytime I ask if this would be the last Why am I still talking to myself Hoping you will have the keys to my cell Every song might calm the weather But it just draws me deeper How do I get out of this I think~ I never will  went past grandma's old house & wept then fainted. got up and wept again. T_T went to Lime flea market @ *scape today. got a bag & a pair of jeans. saw sher & her friend zer while leaving the flea. =D walked around cine & heeren. spending quality time with my long time no see "daddy". miss her so. omgomg she told me she's 172cm alr la WTHHHH haha so tall. seems like SP is not very nice and she gna start school again on monday. :/ tiredTIRED im so very tired. i want sleep. soon.

a cuddle a day

2007-09-21T00:12:00.000+08:00

i fell in love with the girl at the rock show she said what & i told that i didnt know flowers, eyes, black, white, sepia, lace, brown, wood, fur, water, stone, glass, marble, city, scape, lights, sky, clouds, stars, velvet, music, stereo, discs, checks, notes, books, magazines, breeze, cool, snuggles and cuddles, words, lyrics, sounds, art, illustrations, ink, pictures, images, photography, camera, views, points and finders, perspective, l0ve, feelings, warm, mushy, breath-taking, butterflies, fluttery, sweet, scents, you, me, we, us, loves, more, graphics, leather, picturesque, green. (: went to plaza sing today with danna-san. caught Underdog. "Have no fear! Underdog is here!" hahaha -_- benny was tired so we went home early. before that, bought missy dohnartz for the peeps i love most hahaha. that includes me. x) im sure i have more to say but im tired. da jie bought me a wear @ home dress yesterday. SUPER cute. till next my people.

home

2007-09-18T21:47:00.000+08:00

another day passes. thursday is still a day away. now whenever i get bored at home i resort to clearing up stuff haha. so far i cleared my school stuff shelf, my underbed and my tiny desk in my tiny room. finally got space to put my lappie hahaha. but bad thing is - cannot eat while using lappie now cos its in bedroom! (nooooo, my food!) lol. i have also resorted to cooking. zz. lunch only cos i dont do dinner folks. lmao. its my perfect weapon against people i dont like. hahaha. kidding. listening to dancing in the moonlight. oooooh. everybody's feeling warm & bright its such a fun & natural sight! feel happy! (: saw some pictures from last time.. fraser hill last dec.. our last few visits to grandma's old house T_T ahh, the memories. the food are funny. curry yesterday from a pre made packet which was too salty. truth be told i cooked too little rice hahaa. so i made beef. -_- anyways. i think im going to continue wactching anime now. argh. just sneezed haha! so random ciao.

candleburn

2007-09-17T02:07:00.001+08:00

forgot to say my results were ok thank goodness. altho my sister thought that my writcomm and photog grade not good enuff. OK, sian. wanted to post a pic of results but too small. so, 2D Art - B+ Design & Typography- A Creativity & Applied thinking Skills- B+ Photography- B+ Sports & Wellness- PX (means pass) Storyboarding & Storytelling- A Written Communication- C GPA: 3.2955 (upon max. 4) hope can keep the results same standard or if possible higher. nights.

is it you*

2007-09-16T23:01:00.000+08:00

Lying close to you feeling your heart beating And Im wondering what youre dreaming Wondering if its me youre seeing -every moment spent with you is a moment i treasure* (excerpts from i dont wanna miss a thing by aerosmith, nice song) Standing on top of the edge it feels like it's going down Everything stays in my mind feeling in a daze on the ground Feels like it's gonna give life's to hard to live anymore I think I've had enough things too tough I'm out the door All in all it's just another day now You're falling down What you gonna do Standing on top of the world tonight No ones looking back at you Stand tall It's going on It's going on It's gonna be just fine You're holding on Holding on today (excerpt from All in All by Lifehouse.) okay la, this is self cheer. to remind myself to hang on in there. life's not always a bunch of roses (: haha now life is still pretty good. Holding on! ^_^ came back from stayover today! had alot of fun bbq-ing cos the people were crazy haha cai ge so nice to keep cooking and making fire at the bbq pit for us slacking on couches with cold air con that kept blowing into my eyes haahaa. watching horror shows only to have it pre stop and the other hang, li qing! your vcd player! LoL the stroll with pammy, cai ge and jj to 7eleven with the newly minted couple also tagging along, pam the nice talked alot haha entertaining me. almost walk wrong way. but its all gooooott. ((: hiding under qing's blanket doing nothing staying awake, dozing off once in a while. the point where we saw the sky getting brighter was bliss. So.Cool.yea. jacky,jj,caige,ray, and pammy left first arnd 7 30am then me,shu and qing were like, woohoo finally its time to sleep =D woke up at 10plus to find a sms. then slept again until arnd 11/12. ate brekkie and lunchie while watching a tale of two sisters. then went homeeeeee. here i am now hoho. omgomg. red jumsuit apparatus your guardian angel. my fav. line = i will never let you fall. i feel tears slipping in my insides. beautiful.  his favourite. lol-ed. (okay that was random) on saturday, somehow i felt super tired & sleepy. woke up at 9am to go expo with mum n sisters. mumsie thought the fair was at suntec and we Went there la. then 2nd sis bf realise its expo. so we had to go back to expo -_- lamed. they go see the fair. me & 3rd sis rot and wait. wth haha really super boring. fortunately 2nd sis bf pass her psp to us Heheh so can play abit to pass time. but its really meaningless. go there to wait for nothing. ah well. ate munchy donut while waiting also.

coming out of my cage & ive been doing just fine-

2007-09-15T01:35:00.000+08:00

rotted @ home till 4pm and set off to meet ze gals. dinner @ bugis, tan quee lan strt. or something. Indulgez bistro people. omg super full i was. passed by a oldie shop that sold alot of pary like things. super nostalgic! things we played with when we were young. sho cool. and alot of old school snacks! haha x) trotted off to bugis junction then headed back to bedok/eunos area to collect Monopoly from aloy's house. fyi, aloy is xian's bf. fyi2, xian is my sec sch sit in class partner for 2 years, friends for 4 years, one of my sidangs, among the rest, huiyu,serene& lina whose birthday we celebrated today (duh.) played the boardgame (its the HERE & NOW edition ya'll) near xian's house @ some voideck haha. im a loser at these places i think. its so High-tech. has 'credit cards' and a calculator lookalike, which reminded me of accounts, where u slot the cards at the sides accordingly and punched ze numbers accordingly also. start of game we get 15mil each. i tell you. i havent touched that game in 200 lightyears. haa. lost like a loser cos i passed by serene's property and had to pay 11.5mil zomgxxx. haha, tHen! i didnt buy much property also, they all fast fingers bought all already, then! after paying that 11.5mil i only left 600k la, and owed tax 2mil then this & that cant rmb. serene won she had like, 60plus million wtttheckies. haha, good one ser! (= went home after, last number eight bus. im tired, i showered, i wanna sleep. BBQ LATER! hohoho okay i think my pics are screwed up but im too tired to do more so sorry. lina is the gal in the first pictuuure & pinky + short dyed hair is huiyu. LOVES & OUT.

not like.

2007-09-14T01:19:00.000+08:00

ratings: slacking-rotting-decomposing-moderate. on thursday: okay i think ive staying too late each day that when i finally wanna blog @ the end of my day, its already the next day LOL. was being sian @ home. b (which represents baby, ben, boyfriend, boy, baka, bunny & okayidontknowanymore.) told me to do something constructive haha. (-_-) so i went and swept the floor. dont play so much games always okay-(: was making my campbell alphabet soup for lunch & was tranferring the soup to my bowl when the remnants of the alpha's in the pot displayed a letter 'b' in the middle @ me. okay a 'd' was near but i pushed it away. so i looked for 'e' and 'n'. (: i might sleep soon. I MIght uSe Some YOghUrt BEfore the day eNds. go figure ^_^ *friday* PEEPS GOODLUCK FOR SCHOOL RESULTS <3<3 night: dinner with my girls. lina's birthday. i feel bad about it. i try and give my best shot. *saturday* cant wait cant wait. bbq @ liqing's house in the west yo. peaceowwttt.

the "self-absorbed" episode.

2007-09-12T23:32:00.000+08:00

so another day passes by with me being bored at home and serial watching dramas if not animes. today was drama. oh the total MELODRAMA-pull-hair-out- kinda thing. my little secret. i like birdcages. ALmighty knows why. cos i dont. my picture of the sky does the actual no justice. blame my phone. haha. okay, so dont, we were taught not to push the blame to others, right? lol sunsets& rises are so pretty. nice. (: so the day has ended since its 12am. i camwhored. blahahahahaha. (: sorry to whoever cos its narcissism but poohoo! the first was frm a few days ago. -check out the four eyes tian ji pic. brings a whole new meaning yopes. my 2nd little secret. my two big front teeth got gap in between! omgee. eeyer. *smiles mouth closed.* i wanna watch anime now. i shall miss lucky star when it ends in the next ep and im prolly gonna rewatch it all over again cos i liiikkkeee. i just dont care (:

i wanna feel you near. spiritually.

2007-09-12T00:52:00.000+08:00

joined Facebook today! and mutiply too. haha so, added to my list.. ive now got a friendster account, bebo account, multiply account, and facebook account haha. not to mention the hi-5 and tagged accounts which i dont use and always forget about -_- but friendster is a must and facebook is really really cool people! its got lots of applications to play with like pirates and superpoke. you can also add an aquarium, garden etc, to your account. i adopted a pet! most of them were animals but i dont know why they have a tofu But! just so super nice right *uh huh.* so i adopted a tofu and named it ben. Those who have Facebook acc's please go pet my pet! =D you will earn 5munny anyways wahaha. then i've got crunchyroll, blogger and imeem accounts. and livejournal which i created not long ago but forgot everything about it havent even posted anything HAHA. and youtube acc which i, also forgot. really odd isnt it? im sure lots of us have many accounts all over the web. member of this and that. user of this and that. ho hum, where's me rum. lol. omgee laaa. today is the day when nel is tehe dumbest+stupidest. took bus 70 thrice haha what the right. then walk up and down like some silly fool haha. eeyer. i gross myself out. cant do simple things right. oh noooooooooo. okay. im going to hop around now. (yes, im kidding =D)

best in me.

2007-09-07T14:53:00.000+08:00

headache, this is WAR. BENTAN hope u have a good dae @ work. may it suck a lil' less and may the peeps there talk a lil' nicer. *rotts.*

the key to my <3

2007-09-04T23:43:00.000+08:00

went to haji lane today with sher, jeannette and aneesa, their friend we are all from NP yo! *proud* but but sher gna leave me for tp next year... ))): like, supa dupa sad. *sighs* the shops were super cool la omgee. wanna buy this & that ya but wait till i strike rich kay. LoL. left early cos i was damn tired. told sher if i dont leave now later i no strength carry myself home le. then she said i carry you la. Wahaha. right sher, prepare to crumble under me frame. =D slept late last night and my legs are aching from all that walking. took alot of piccsss. 99% credits to sher wong mighty photographer, some taken by the 1/3 chinese, 1/3 indian, 1/3 malay lil boy and his cousin. haha, they Live there la! at haji lane! in the shophouses! gah! ((: ok, the boy actually said he was 1/2 indian, half cheena and half malay. i edit for him. Lmao. half. n_n if you really wanna know what i think, i shall just be straightforward. dont need to question me cos these are all just random thoughts. bah all the so called love is just bullshit man. im not gonna believe any of it. love is great but its a scary thing sometimes. and sometimes, i dislike it. i really do. seriously. who cares. i like busrides i like to look out the window i like milo. alot.(: i like to drink milo. theres so many things i could say, but would it be worth it, or pointless from the start. i really like the old phone (see last pic) gna sleep soon. shoo tired. nights ya'll.

my fam fam!

2007-09-04T10:52:00.000+08:00

i think im starting to like mtv trl more & more wahaha. reasons why i love my family oh-so-much: 1) we are totally comfortable with each other so at home is a unglam+super slack time. 2) sisters & i sometimes share the same thoughts and characteristic traits(supaa cool) 3) no matter what happens we will forgive each other in no time. 4) they buy me things LoL 5) they buy things so i dont have to 6) they take care of me 7) we can sometimes share clothes/shoes/whatever 8) they are nice accompany when you have to stay at home 9) they love me! n_n 10) my sisters being all older+my mum, they always teach me new things and some super cool facts and stuff, and advice, and experience. and everything else la. wahahaha 11) when things dont go the way i want, they will be the ones ever ready to be there for me. because they are, my family. if they dont support me, who will? so i will support them too =D <3<3<3 of course, there are times when the air is tense, dialogue is rash and harsh but lets not think about them. (: in the end, they are still my one & only family that i will love forever ever. some loved ones are gained, some loved ones are lost. but no matter who comes & who goes, dont stop loving. -nel p.s GAH! SPONGEBOBOB IS ON TV!!!! BYE YA'LL-

ha~ah gotta get outta here

2007-09-03T20:27:00.000+08:00

& it rained today but in a nice way. the air was cool. *_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_* cos i've housing all this doubt; & insecurities ive locked inside that house; & you old the key (ref. be my escape lyrics; relient k) went to bugis then tpy then tm wif a certain big baby (lol) then home. watched evan almighty wakaka. it was ok la. i think bruce was bett-er. im gonna go haji with sher and i think jeannette tmr. meowza. saturday hpefully flea wif daddykins(natalie) so long never see her alr la pee lap. gah okay im getting bored blogging -_- shall update whenever. (: tooks. below: shu hui & bryan- dont they look like a cool couple? *raising eyebrows in quick succesion* WAHAHAHA.

cos its you & me.

2007-09-01T01:37:00.000+08:00

everybody. i officially announce im bored and im going to lock myself @ homey home home. wahaha. my life is sho boring and sucky. the only things that dont suck are prolly my baby and my mum and the rest of my famfam. ghaged. electric piano my da jie jie (<3) bought arrived today. i had the honour of un-cardboxing it and setting it up- well partially haha. (anyhow one) anyhow play play. im getting sad now cos i had cramps e whole day until now and im feelin hungry. gyabo. whhyyyeeeee. -offed.

this is the best feeling.

2007-08-29T21:53:00.000+08:00

Ok, im sure ya'll know why the lack of updates- nel is one big lazy pig. thank you thank you. been going out wif ben and other t1b2 friends like shu hui,pamela,li qing and bryan. and going to ben & jerry's to find them as they do their training & tasting some free ice cream and smoothies LoL. singapore=boring. there is only so much we can do. finally met sher today! after 568249102001543829 years. miss her so so! i shall bully ben. i shall bully ben.i shall bully ben. i shall bully ben.i shall bully ben. i shall bully ben.i shall bully ben. i shall bully ben.i shall bully ben. i shall bully ben.i shall bully ben. i shall bully ben.i shall bully ben. i shall bully ben.i shall bully ben. i shall bully ben.i shall bully ben. i shall bully ben.i shall bully ben. i shall bully ben.i shall bully ben. i shall bully ben.i shall bully ben. i shall bully ben.i shall bully ben. i shall bully ben.i shall bully ben. i shall bully ben.i shall bully ben. i shall bully ben.i shall bully ben. i shall bully ben.i shall bully ben. i shall bully ben.i shall bully ben. i shall bully ben.i shall bully ben. i shall bully ben.i shall bully ben. i shall bully ben.i shall bully ben. i shall bully ben.i shall bully ben. i shall bully ben.i shall bully ben. i shall bully ben.i shall bully ben. i shall bully ben.i shall bully ben. i shall bully ben.i shall bully ben. i shall bully ben.i shall bully ben. i shall bully ben.i shall bully ben. i shall bully ben.i shall bully ben. i shall bully ben. cos im allowed to. =D uso da piuu~ ohohoho (high pitched laughter). boyslikegirls- the great escape Throw it away Forget yesterday We'll make the great escape Won't hear a word they say They don't know us anyway Watch it burn Let it die 'Cause we are finally free tonight Tonight will change our lives It's so good to be by your side We'll cry But We won't give up the fight We'll scream loud at the top of our lungs And they'll think it's just 'cause we're young And we'll feel so alive & the moon was so round at night.

tell me something i dont know*

2007-08-26T00:09:00.000+08:00

your words mean alot to me. meeting sher on tuesday for a long awaited meet up or possibly starbucks. then vb training. faints. Hee. imissher!

secret*

2007-08-25T02:41:00.000+08:00

•_• dont need to hear me rant cos i know not what im thinking nor saying cos whatever i tried to type made no sense whatsoever and allowing it to be published would be degrading myself etc hence i have come to this sentence of not needing to hear me rant cos i know not what im thinking nor saying, and for this matter, typing. i make, almost, no sense. simply complicated (: all i've ever wanted was purity, faith and innocence. is that too much to ask, and something that only exists when one is young? haha benben, cap is cute ok! *^_^* bryan got a 'buil a bear' for jacky today. ben n i tagged along, and all choosed its clothes n stuff hehe the staff sang bryan a birthday song! Lol. not bad lei, special song cos its build a bear customized, not any old birthday song ya. they asked us to take this small heart shaped thing, make a wish, give it a kiss then stuff it into the bear. it was soo funny hoho. its 3am. im sleepy.

all in all its just another day

2007-08-23T23:43:00.000+08:00

Take Chances, Charge foward! Carpe Diem! LOL. that unsettling feeling. i dont think i will until i get it. i want i want.

lifehouse. im letting go of all ive held on to.

2007-08-22T19:49:00.000+08:00

hello hello. =D tm-ed ytd with sister. watched princess mononoke (i dunno how to spell so pardon if im wrong) random-why do poeple like to ask me what am i doing, or what have i been doing, in life etc. sian lei. asking me why am i always busy. im busy doing nothing folks! stop asking! went to vivo today with benben. haha, no idea what to do man cos they're all just shops. so walked and walked and decided to catch skinwalkers. it was a okok not much exciting stuff movie. lol. maybe shd have caught license to wed instead. ate at the [taugeh] rice shop after then mrt-ed back to tamp. ate strawberry dessert hoho. ben has a sian face. his trademark. (-_-) talked in the train. it is what it is. i dont feel like thinking too much nor want to and im trying not to. cos, heck it man lets just go with the flow yo haha i guess theres nth much to lose. i dont wanna live a life of worry. think so much also no use and im sorta tired of thinking. of course im scared la. based on this & that. but, ya.haha it is a nice thought, for & of everything. to be frank, i do want it to work out; thanks. hoho im listening to lifehouseeeee! ^_^ (hear me now) starving for truth; Forgetting all I'm lacking Completely incomplete I'll take your invitation You take all of me now.. I'm running and not quite sure where to go And I don't know what I'm diving into Just hanging by a moment here with you. we are so close. lets hang by the moment, ben <3 1) the strawberry dessert. lol he ask me take one lmao. 2)little girl dont gimme sian face luh. (:

polysaccharine

2007-08-21T00:17:00.000+08:00

hoho he's silly & its funny. i think im happy. i cant tell so i will tell when i can tell =D